RAP SONG






'You are just like zero to me even if you smell of glee and... open the boot, bad breather! Where is my glee? Did you take my glee? Where is my daughter? Is she combing the barbie in the boot?'


In this story I am a loser, big dreams crushed hard. Forced to leave the city after a sentimental breakdown.
As I remember, her verbal abuse was thickening and the voice pounding my mind.
Now I am walking the cow, retired in nature. The silence in the bushes is as dense as a milkshake.
A troll heckles my head. To release the pressure in my psyche, I do soliloquy.
And you see, words impute rattle of leaves and puffs of breeze. Nature gulps me.
And here comes the idea that an existence cannot be justified without plough. In the greenery I plant glee for the council estate.




They say glee spreads when you cry by solitude in your room. The aim is to use the plants to tangle the legs of little ones and rise them above love hunger.
It may be caused by missing fathers – men are always the hollow fiascos to tickle the dented china and depart.
Followed by the maids of Orleans in search of independence and teenagers' casual kisses, the addicted mothers.
Or the cheerladies fanning new heroes, the widows who cannot take it anymore and mirage playgrounds into cemetery.
It is said parental love is scourged. This estate's infants holds it in a fist, well hidden behind their backs.
Maybe one day the unicorn will blow it out of their hands like a dandelion, when all the area will be cleared and regenerated, of course.


In the meantime, the leaves of glee are ascending with the reclaims from children. Little eyes in pain forget easily with full bellies the grim of the estate.
But nature is my shepherd and my solace. It pets me. It grooms me like a gaunt odd glove.
In the afternoon I sit on my porch and ruminate about the hoe who broke my heart and I get mean.
That's when I loaf around the dusky liquor shop in the corner and peddle the glee surplus to younger generation. So I am not good man after all.




In this outside so beautiful I spend my days fearing the Reapers. Faceless angels – black monsters with one thousand hoods- threaten my crop.
They were dispossessed when the tower blocks were razed for the golf club. So thirsty for land they will siege my field.


I understand they were kids once. Throughout the years sockets have been implanted in their eye bags. They have crystal drops of ice sculptures effigiating their pop idols.
-Their heroes are in videos of things, viaticum for flying cars, fast fashion, jeans burn-out like candles.
Exhausted before the tremor of adulthood, catching experiences and partners as scorched desire to imitate these idols on videos -


Because of what they smoke, they cough like hounds in December. Sledge dogs abandoned for reindeer.
The horny pullers are much slender, females, blessed with the look which is a guarantee to be taken care and cured.
While the male species in the Reapers, amorph, with frothy mouth, are trod on like a tapestry of tattoos
With inspirational quotes – too bland to follow, too obvious to be practical- with oversized trainers
that detach them from the ground, high in the deluded skies.


When storms howl the prairies at night, you hear them by the limbs adorned with trinkets babbling with wind.
The villagers bolt themselves in, afraid like the elderlies when sport cars gas the roads
But the bling seemingly ceases in July with the fireflies, as the rowdy Reapers didn't trust themselves fully in the heat.


I am an exile, as you know, who collects books in a cabin in the mountain and I go to valley only to plant the glee.
But I read the trend for adornment is feminine so no fear, love, no fear of the engraved Reapers. Plus my friend is a dj who saw one hooded monster screens his blank pupils and urinate like a dog.
A virility unroofed. The sex of the angels. From Cain's clan.
So I instructed my daughter to bark at them and disperse.


“Where is my glee? Where is my daughter? I made this rap, but was it purposeful? I got no tutor. Take it as a rehearsal. I got no fame, just bucks for a divorceful. I am not ducking the calls of worship. Janitor, release my daughter from the boot”  
ere to edit.

Who am I ?
I was man
Before woman
Now sphinx
Tomorrow death.
Not enough time for these osteopathic ashes to compost that I am posed to be reborn infant and play with you another time, Spouse.
'My runner daughter hides knives under her shirt. For safety. My uncle in the army taught her how to use the blade with deadly effect. She is 11. '
An extract from the morning paper and I cry because I am sentimental and idiotic. Stoned by jasmines and memories of mother. The stone well in the garden echoes the wail of females which is in potential, which did not REALLY happen.

Nevertheless the bereaver granny camouflaged in a veil as dark as abyss ghosts me. On the opposite, my fear of dying depicts my mother forever younger than me in flowery dresses - blue and red I see her now, before masterpieces I am destined to write and poems sober.
I am buying myself some time. None wails and my daughter doesn't fear the stalker, the son of man begotten by Beelzebu's rib.

And I tell her to console – Man is your friend, an amicable companion, a servitude easily to entangle with romance and rosy pigments, a cooing peacock afraid of sturdy matrons in the desolated taverns, on the way to the mountains, where runners go.

And please conceive how men are dangerous only when they move in numbers like in wars.

Keto Drinks: Your Guide to Keto-Friendly Beverages
​Originally published on HVMN by Ryan Rodal

If you're considering the keto diet, you may think it's extremely difficult maintain. The low-carb, high-fat diet will certainly require a lifestyle change, but it may also illuminate hidden sources of carbs in your everyday diet—especially in regards to sugar intake. People tend to underestimate this one. This is no truer than with beverages, as folks usually overlook how much sugar is in some of their favourite drinks.

Table of Contents
Zero-Carb and Low-Carb Beverages
Water
Coffee
Tea
Low-Calorie or No-Calorie Sport Drinks
Milk Substitutes
Keto-Friendly Alcohol
Exogenous Ketones
Keto Smoothies
Artificial Sweeteners
Drinks to Avoid
Soda
Fruit Juice
Beer and Wine
Energy Drinks
What Should You Drink?


Many everyday beverages may contain more calories and carbs than you would believe possible. To make matters worse, the majority of these carbs will come strictly from refined, processed sugar.

The glass of orange juice you had with breakfast? That’ll be 120 calories and 10 grams of carbs. The morning trip to your local coffee shop? That drink could have as many as 600 calories and 75 grams of carbs. The soda at lunch? It’s worth 200 calories and 40 grams of carbs.

These hidden calories from sugar may be compromising your health and weight loss objectives. Drinks such as juices, sodas, and flavoured coffees come jam packed with large amounts of processed sugar, which spell disaster for a ketogenic diet. By following our guide below, you will be closer to staying keto-friendly, and learn how to dodge the constant sneak-attacks from sugar lurking in our everyday diet.

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Zero-Carb and Low-Carb Beverages. There are several keto-friendly, low-carb drinks out there. It’s important to be informed about what you’re drinking, because even a small amount of sugar can kick you out of ketosis.



Water. This is the most abundant fluid on Earth, and the most precious liquid for life in general. Though not necessarily the most sexy or popular option, every person on a keto diet should start here. Water makes up 75% of our body weight and can affect health, energy, performance, and overall function.1

Humans can lose around 1% - 2% of total body water during a typical day just as a result of simple routine activities. Many adults tend to drink less than half the recommended daily value of water, and as a result, may experience unpleasant consequences of dehydration. Men should drink about four litres of water per day, and women should drink about three litres per day, and in both cases, requirements are likely more if you’re active. Ensuing you hit your daily water minimum is important. Dehydration has shown to be detrimental to both physical performance and cognition.

Not only is water the basis for survival, but it also is the most versatile option of all the beverages on the keto-drink list. Plain water may be commonly thought of as a boring, flavourless liquid, but it can be jazzed up numerous ways.

• Adding squeeze of citrus juice: Take a wedge of lemon or lime and squeeze a small amount into your drink. You could even add cucumber or mint and refrigerate for freshness. This can add a lot of flavor with little-to-no calories involved

 

• Carbonated / sparkling water: Simply adding some bubbles to your water by using a carbonation machine can give your water an effervescent quality. If you choose not to produce your own carbonated water, there are several options available commercially

 

• Zero-calorie flavouring: Water enhancers that are zero calorie can add a lot of flavor with just a small squeeze. There are several out there you can purchase, varying in flavors. Be sure to moderate your intake of artificial sweeteners and consume in moderation

Consuming enough water daily is not only vital to overall health, but it may help prevent problems such as constipation, urinary tract infections, and kidney failure. Did we forget to mention it's keto friendly? Do we need to?

CoffeeCoffee is one beverage that has been consumed for centuries with its origins dating back well over one thousand years. Coffee consumption has been controversial at times—it was once seen as a drink linked to heart disease and high blood pressure. However, views on coffee have substantially changed over the years, and now the drink has become a beverage staple crossing cultural lines and international borders for generations.

Coffee has gone from simple bean to multi-billion dollar industry. But in its purest form, coffee is an all-natural crop that is farmed, harvested, roasted and filtered over water. Coffee was once viewed as detrimental to health but has now been shown to have positive health benefits in modest amounts.3

Some of the health benefits associated with modest coffee consumption include:

• Improved weight maintenance through thermogenesis and fat oxidation

 

• Appetite suppression

 

• Lower risk of some cancers

 

• Increased energy

One problem with the line up at your local coffee shop: it's so easy to add large amounts of sugar to coffee in the form of flavored syrups.
This increases its carb count making it an enemy of the keto diet. Think about all the sugar in a frappuccino! Lattes should also be avoided as milk contains a high amount of carbs as well.

You may be thinking, “There is absolutely no way I am drinking black coffee.” Fair enough. Black coffee is an acquired taste for most people. Good news is, there are keto-friendly options to make your coffee less bitter and more palatable.

• Add heavy cream: Heavy cream is low in carbohydrates and high fat, helping to minimize the bite associated with black coffee

 

• Make MCT coffee: Many people have begun adding medium-chain triglycerides (MCTs) to their coffee. MCTs aren’t exactly ketones, but they’re fatty acids readily converted into ketones. The main source of MCTs is coconut oil. If you're looking for a zero net-carb option, we have you covered with HVMN MCT Oil Powder, made from pure C8 (the world’s most ketogenic fat) and a base of acacia fiber

 

• Add nut milk: Adding nut milks such as almond milk or cashew milk are low carb options that add very few calories to coffee drinks

These options can make black coffee a bit more palatable without all the unnecessary sugar you may get from a local coffee shop. But if coffee isn’t your cup of tea? Well maybe try...tea.

TeaThe history of tea spans centuries and cultures all over the world. As one of the longest-standing beverages consumed by humans, tea has been a practical drink that is both medicating and beneficial.

Tea is the second most widely-consumed beverage on the planet (behind, of course, water). Recent studies have suggested that tea may help reduce the risk of developing chronic diseases such as cancer, cardiovascular disease, arthritis, and diabetes.6
In addition to the physiological benefits, certain varieties have other positive benefits including:7

• Reduction of anxiety

 

• Improved cognition

 

• Improved memory

An amino acid in tea, called L-theanine, might be responsible for some of these benefits. It has shown to increase focus and decrease stress—a powerful combo.8 That’s exactly why we included L-theanine in Sprint, our nootropic for energy and focus.

Not only is tea beneficial to health, but many varieties, including herbal tea and green tea, are keto-friendly and part of a low-carb diet. The problem that exists with coffee runs parallel to tea: large amounts of sugar are often added to it.

Obviously, sweetened teas that contain a high sugar content are not part of a keto-friendly diet. Therefore, in order to stay in ketosis, you must limit your sugar intake by consuming unsweetened teas.

Low-Calorie or No-Calorie Sport DrinksOur bodies need electrolytes. Electrolytes are electrically-charged elements that function to stimulate the body’s muscles and nerves. Electrolytes include sodium, calcium, potassium, magnesium and phosphate; they control the level of fluids in the body, affecting cellular function, blood volume level and blood pressure.

It is important to balance electrolyte levels in the body to ensure that the body can function optimally.

An electrolyte imbalance can result in dehydration and symptoms such as fatigue, vomiting, sweating, nausea, diarrhea, muscle cramps, lack of coordination, lack of focus, dizziness, increased body temperature, and kidney issues.
Sweat during exercise causes a loss of electrolytes and risk of dehydration. Therefore, athletes must consume electrolytes, and these are often a key component of sports drinks. Sports drinks aim for the correct balance of electrolytes, vitamins, minerals. During prolonged exercise, water alone fails to restore lost electrolytes, therefore, specially designed sports electrolyte drinks are most effective in maintaining optimal bodily fluids.

Unfortunately many popular sport drinks filling the locker room cooler are high in sugar and carbs. For the athlete practicing the ketogenic diet, this could spell disaster. The good news is that in today’s day and age, there are plenty of zero-calorie options that can provide the electrolytes needed to perform with low carb intake.

These options often come in effervescent tablet form, or as powders and are lightly-flavored, without all the added sugar.

Milk SubstitutesTraditional cow’s milk has been a staple in the human diet for centuries. In fact, humans have been consuming cow’s milk for almost 10,000 years.

Dairy milk contains a relatively high number of carbohydrates. Some people have issues digesting cow’s milk due to lactose intolerance. As much as 65% - 70% of the world’s population has some level of lactose intolerance.
Due to the issues with digestion, several milk substitute products have been developed in recent years. The most popular varieties include almond milk, cashew milk, soy milk, and coconut milk. These substitutes are keto-friendly due to their low carb content.

What’s so great about milk substitutes? They can still be used in the same manner as traditional milk. Whether you choose to add it to cereal or coffee, the possibilities are endless.

Be sure to use an unsweetened variety of these nut milks as their sweetened counterparts contain high concentrations of sugar.

Keto-Friendly AlcoholThis one stirs up some controversy in keto circles. Certain types of alcohol can be apart of a low-carb diet in moderation, but there are certain alcoholic beverages that may completely derail your ketosis.

If you do choose to drink alcohol follow some of our tips below.

• Drink spirits: Spirits such as scotch, whiskey, tequila, rum, or vodka contain carbs but the amount is less compared to other alcoholic beverages

 

• Avoid sugary mixers: Alcohol can quickly add up in carbs and calories partially due to the fact that people mix these drinks with sugary sodas, juices, or drink mixes. If you do add a mixer, choose a low carb option (like soda water or citrus)

 

• Avoid beer: Beer is jam-packed with carbs making it very unfriendly to the ketogenic diet

Keto or not, it’s important to note that alcohol should always be consumed in moderation. Drinking moderately on occasion likely will not alter your state of ketosis but try not to go overboard. And be sure to drink responsibly!

Exogenous KetonesKetosis happens two ways—endogenously (meaning, ketones are produced in the body, likely a result of diet or fasting) or exogenously (ketones consumed from an external source, likely a supplement drink). Endogenous ketosis can take days or weeks, so many people we employ an exogenous ketone supplement to help achieve ketosis faster.

MCTs (discuss previously) are not technically an exogenous ketone but they do bump up BHB levels somewhat (remember, they don’t actually contain ketones). Ketone salts are another option, these usually come as a powder to be mixed in water. But you should watch out, as regular use of ketone salts will cause you to consume far over the recommended daily allowance of sodium. Ketone esters, like HVMN Ketone, provide a great option for almost-immediate, deep ketosis with increased levels of beta hydroxybutyrate (BHB).




At only 120 calories per serving, HVMN Ketone was developed to enhance endurance performance. In testing, elite cyclists who drank HVMN Ketone performed 2% - 3% better, cycling 400m further in a 30-min time trial.10 Safe to say this is definitely a keto-friendly drink!

Of course, these are keto-friendly drink options as they are free of sugar—but they can also increase ketone levels and kickstart ketosis.

Keto SmoothiesWhen the term “smoothie” comes up, you may instantly think of a high-sugar drink that isn't keto-friendly.

While most smoothies contain high-fructose fruit or sugar, keto smoothies provide valuable nutrients such as fiber, while helping you stay in a state of ketosis.
There are several keto-friendly smoothies available made with low-carb fruit options to provide valuable nutrients. Try blending together 200ml unsweetened almond milk, 1 tsp stevia, 1 tbsp turmeric, 1 tsp cinnamon, 1 tsp ground ginger, 1 scoop MCT Oil, and 1 tbsp of Chia seeds to make a delicious breakfast smoothie.

Artificial SweetenersOne topic to address when dealing with low- to no-calorie beverages is artificial sweeteners.

Many sugar-free products contain artificial sweeteners instead of sugar. There has been controversy in recent years over whether or not these artificial sweeteners are safe and/or healthy regardless of carb content.

Although artificial sweeteners are designed to replace sugar in low-carb beverages, observational data has shown that these sweeteners may be associated with increased body mass index (BMI) and obesity.11 Limiting the consumption of any type of sweetener may be the best option for preventing weight gain. Instead, identify natural sweeteners that have 
been shown to have positive effects on body weight and metabolism such as Stevia.12

Drinks to AvoidThe vast majority of consumer produced beverages contain high amounts of sugar. To avoid unwanted sugar and maintain ketosis, be sure to check the nutrition label on some of your favorite drinks Here are a few easy ones to keep an eye out for.




SodaAll types of soda should be avoided on a ketogenic diet whether it be regular, diet, or zero-calorie. Studies show a positive correlation between soda intake and a higher BMI.

Furthermore, these drinks have been associated with an increased risk of type 2 diabetes. While genetics obviously play in a role in the development of these diseases, there is no doubt lifestyle choices are also important.

Diet and zero calorie sodas are high in artificial sweeteners such as aspartame and sucralose. Diet soda has been said to produce an insulin response similar to regular sodas, thereby having some of the same deleterious side effects.13 People following a ketogenic diet should strive to eliminate these drinks from their diets.

Fruit JuiceIn past generations, juice was thought of as a healthy drink providing valuable micronutrients such as Vitamin C and Calcium to children and adults alike.

In recent years, we’ve come to realize that traditional juice beverages are actually filled with sugar.
Fruit juice drinks such as apple and orange juice are naturally rich in sugar, making them extremely detrimental to a standard keto diet.14 Some manufacturers even add extra sugar to make them more palatable. Due to their high sugar content, juice drinks should not be consumed on a typical ketogenic diet.
 Beer and Wine
Generally, alcohol isn’t a keto-friendly beverage. But as we discussed, there are certain alcoholic drinks that are more preferable to a keto diet—still, there are definitely some that should be avoided.

Beer is high in carbs and provides no nutritional value to dietary standards. All types of wine, including red wine and white wine, also contain high sugar as well. However, there are certain manufacturers that produce keto friendly wine. A drink or two is fine with careful selection and appropriate moderation.


Energy DrinksEnergy drinks have never been thought of as a healthy option since their introduction to the marketplace in the 1990s. In addition to the “caffeine crash” that many people experience while consuming these drinks, they also tend to contain harmful ingredients such as guarana and taurine.

While there are zero-calorie options available, the large amounts of caffeine and other ingredients may be linked to incidences of heart rhythm disturbances and increased blood pressure.

What Should You Drink?Sugary drinks are ingrained in society; people will often have a sugary coffee drink in the morning, a soda with lunch, or a beer with dinner. All of these options are difficult to consume while on the keto diet because of their carbohydrate content. Especially as you start off on the keto diet, you should pay special attention to the nutrition facts for your beverages, as so many people guzzle carb-heavy drinks perfectly innocently, without even realizing they’re full of sugar.

Good news, though: in today’s modern day and age, there are plenty of keto options available, with more brands and flavors coming out all the time.

What is your best bet ? Stick to water and black coffee. If you need to spice things up a bit, try carbonated water with a fresh squeeze of citrus. It's worth being diligent. You’ll feel so much more energized when you can train your body to run on ketones all day, rather than reaching for a mid afternoon sugary drink-pick-me-up.
How to easily increase ketone levels. Our experts put together a complete guide for increasing ketone levels. Subscribe to get it straight to your inbox.



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 Catherine, Clarabella, Electra, Jennifer, Rachel, Esther,
do not like me, I cannot hold on anything such I am wobbly,
But Julienne, you are not to love.
You are a recipient of too many vowels,
your hair is like a torch under the sun
and, even more, you sympathise with the enemies.


You know how it is in times of war
sitting in trenches eating cans of beans.
But you allure us, Julienne.
And where can we possibly go?
We should not dare.


Sighing heavily because of a rich meal on a lotus field
I tried to be out of reach from you, my limby friend.
Backpacking in Asia for dry months, I was coerced into eating little and skipped the yoga and missed the weight training that preps my body so beautifully as you liked to depose on it, Julienne.


When I was back in this Europe of our grandfathers that crumbles, I stared at dusty pages.
You were jealous like a hyena imagining encounters with ladies of high maintenance.
But I was trying to loosen you from me, and you pushed the fact how easygoing you are, in the acceptance of all sorts of foods till the stem of the humble vegetable. As I had asked you to slurp a bowl of liquid gold!
Why did you haunt my footsteps from Berlin to Paris with that caustic font on your letters? I had rather conceited in you a hare leaping in these burrows of female empowerment.
I said: I refrain, I want her to find the time for new lovers. I push her into abandonment. She, now enraged, may find the strength to disfigure my icon.
But you are chained to me because I got no face or too many, so you can just concentrate on the project of your loving.


I must possibly turn down the role of robin in this cooing relation. Believe me, I put on weight recently and I can no longer ascender with buckets of blossoms the sky to ignite the spring and release cherries on you (it's well documented how wolfish you get with red).


You see? I cannot climb on the steeple to steal the rope from the eyes of the garrulous priest who used to spy when we had that loving in the hay. And by the time he torn the bells to call the villagers to collect themselves in your cortege, you almost quest them as spectators.
You found new things about yourself, though, all the way through, I was an unsaddled horse with a big head. It was always about me… Me on the pony, me by the canal, me in the Louvres, me on the gondola. I didn't tender you, Julienne. I was an unpleasant gardener fetching weed on the grave of my ancestors. While, you had in you, recalls on renaissance and imported fragrances. Madonna with Child, Julienne.


My Julienne was the pietas, the weeping willow, outgrown,… there, in my driveway to soak my coat. Because you were obsessed with winter, keeping saying: winter is coming!
That likeness for long night, shivering bones, hugging mouths.
You know there are people with jags like dogs, protruding like tanks charging disused buildings. They are the impossible kissers. But I analyse my selfies and I know you fancied my convex profile which is good at receiving the others…. Smooch….. Ominous disheartened acceptance.
Remember when you caught me up with the ballerina and I thought it over. Now this relationship is gonna burst like a saccharine bubble. With patience and grace I will start a new life and I justify it as an instance. Better for her, I said. Eventually the serpent ( Julienne) in this garden of English apples will permute into moth and make way to other, of low birth, more fitting to my vices.
But you were eager to stay with me in guilt. And you hedged me (a bull). And you made a daughter out of me when I was asleep in the Marbella's August and then you flew.


Seven years of melancholy have passed, please return, Julienne. Bring the hedges and, more, nail me to the fence.
Knot my groins, spike my pints and sedate my mind not educated enough to solitude.


You are so languid, Julienne!

 -I belittle, you little monsters. What's the wanton to me? I am the man on the moon.
I cry larger than you, I am the man on the moon.
Weight my tear on the scale of the cheese stall. On the surface of this drop you will see
the angels surf sifting the ocean for pearls and debris from my brothers who came.
My people have four lives and six hands, they all understand
When they travelled and deceased to help your land, to build the playground with their six hands
How easy is to play and flourish
How easy is to joy and cherish
Picking up the cherry from tree is easier by the spaceship of the people of the moon.


The dearth was granulous, had an aftertaste of solitude when we came.
The storm of lunar toys was acidic and cancelled the breeding specs of the soil
The females were infecund and left the moots to exfoliate in sunflowers of orange zest.
The mojitos we had since, tasted of acrimonious ballet of gut bacteria, but we were silent because dominated by the brat of the moon.


The brat is my brother I confess. I recuse the way he sits astride on comets and
He perjures 'fide et amore' to Sun and celestial allies, but he's malign, insufferable and little
and he's hostile to shadow of kids, which him belittle with heights of bliss.
The little angels have chocolate in heart as it should be.

​- Don't believe the night is dark because I'll paint it yellow
You'll be the star in stark contrast with the constellations of motherhood and dispossession
I'll dog myself and howl at you, unrepentant


- Silly you! To paint stable relationship you need the stability of lunar seas
I am quite tired to have my water broken by ravenous angels who are angry for love and so on
When your daughter grows she can flog you because of your inactions


- Unheard were her cries because the children in the park were so rowdy
Then the dark came, and all the men in the borough felt the remembrance of love
I locked the back door and even the mouse droppings along the canal cannot fall on deaf ears
Maybe we should hire wailing women and pretend a funeral parade


-That would be too dark and I need a love which is customary
A love which comes in stripes of men who are defeated and redefine the self
They have no tongue but quest for egos and tabula rasa


In emotional constipation live fathers after birth that so much giving leave them emaciated and
ladies don't understand that the toddler sucked their flesh
Of course woman feels unloved and so man misunderstood
How much more? How much more? How much more?

​Will you believe me when you grow up?
Will you eat me when I get old?
The richness of my mind
The worlds in my sage.
The sandcastle you built in the hourglass of our time in unison.
Only regret the unspoken.
Only eat the wilted.
Only serenade the martyrs
Because I will live forever to be with you.


Daddy is not fade
As a badger spades tunnels in garden of memories
And you, as a refugee of familiar triumph, toddle in them.
Oh! Ungrateful fleshy rabbit,
Jump on me
Let's dine stew of hearts and mash of sentiments.
Let's paint the night and stomp on colour tube of exotic infancy
to erase our dynasty of failure.


Don't say thank you
to the dead fish you overfed to kill,
To the decapitated doll,
To the dupe you over licked upon the window screen of daddy's car.
Shall we? Rain has always been leaking in our hut and you found the bread moldy and mices rustling and black & white rainbows.
Nature has been ugly in CV and you get stoned by music or poetry or self induce a dream or shout out day like parrot. Repeating words to show presence but...
Are you the most invisible? No advice from the school governor, the bus conductor, the ballet coach. You listen to the racing driver and envision yellow sunflowers and the long hair of hay.
Adulterated by summer and yellow should be the life of our daughters.
Never say thank you for black & white rainbows.

Shut up! You are a rebel ,a riddle, a thorn, a fanfare without a brass
I don't want you hear, demolisher of life, the cries of our babies, in the autumn of our relationship.
Disguiser, speculator, worm in rotten apple, rodent of ideas and wedding rings, shut up!
Our baby is fast asleep and may a giant bubble invisibly protect him from soothsayers.


You cannot gamble the gender, age and number, the nationality and the search for god
May she be what she will be and haul her over the stars


Shut up! You broke the fence, run away with the enemy and the fox broke through
It could have assaulted the baby and bite her
Where is your heart nobody knows and the lullaby says ' Open the venter there is a rodent…'
Gnawing at fatherhood, empathy, resentment , decorum, the things you hide online,
falsehood, quick sale of fidelity, why did I marry you…


Shut up! Even Jesus seems skinny on the cross
Striking a pose, keeping up appearance comes across as a male thing
But love in partners is a recoil of love in daughter
Reflection of our parents' final tears
Do the right thing, shut up
May she be what she will be.